Still technically not allowed online, but Mom's out for a long while :D
Here's another I wrote, wrote this three days ago. Shit, it was that long? ..Doesn't feel that long. Anyhoooo...
Saturday, June 6, 2009 10:49 pm
Tonight was probably the best night I've had in a while. Mom is still giving me the silent treatment, but I really don't care because it makes her look very childish.
I don't even care that I missed the TobyMac concert at Great Adventure.
Yes, it was that great.
GPYWS is now my favorite thing in the entire world and I'm on such a high right now that I don't even care that we don't commence again until September.
So I showed up at Princeton University and I don't remember exactly what part, I'll look at the program again tomorrow and write it down [[Richardson Auditorium in Alexander Hall]]. Right, so I got there about a half hour early, as usual, and just kinda messed around on my flute. Then Emily showed up and my heart just kind of decided it would jump right out of my chest and start dancing its happy dance on the floor behind her feet, following her. Okay, maybe that's a bit dramatic. But I just felt so much more relieved and happy when she got there. She waved and went to put her stuff down and take out her bass clarinet. She came back over to me, smiled and started putting the neck of her clarinet onto its body. She pulled out her reed case and asked me to pick one out for her. I chose the one on the bottom right.. it looked the nicest (ahem, cleanest :D). Then ensued the casual small talk, hey, how are you, what's up .. y'know. Then she went to go pratice with one of the other clarinetists, and I followed after 30 seconds or so. I just wanted to be near her. I just kind of stood in front of them, who were seated, and listened. Then I went back to where I was before and started playing some. I went back to the rack where my purse was to text Desiree, and I talked to Moon Chang and Kelly and their friends for a little bit. I went back and forth quite a bit because there was nothing else to do, really. It got pretty hot in there so I followed Chang out the doors I was standing next to. It wasn't much cooler out there. -shrug- I tried to look pretty in front of Brian who was out there, who was glancing at me every now and then. And I got bored again so I went back inside and played Hungarian against the wall by the doors. Then I went over to Kelly and Chang again to tune up. And then Mr. Warshafsky called us over. He asked me to get Emily and Ray, so I did and went back. He told us to be in that same corner by 7:30 pm. Then I went back to my phone. No answer. Then I just stayed with Chang for a while. Then we got called outside, instead of in that corner again. Mr. Warshafsky told us how Tuesday is a day he really looks forward to because of us. He wished us luck and told us some stuff to do when we were done, which was to hand our music in, and pointed to me and said, "Especially you," because I only had one song, Galop. xD He's so funny.. gotta love 'im. Anyhoo ... He told us to be ready to go in ten minutes, and then we went back inside. I went and got my folder (with one song in it) and went back up the stairs by the doors again. A bunch of kids were in a circle, playing a slapping game. It was pretty funny. All of a sudden Emily was next to me again and I felt really good. I kept watching and eventually she went back to where she was before again. Then I decided to join the game, so I put my flute and folder down. When I was watching before I joined, the slapping of the hands sounded really painful. But the first time I got slapped it really didn't hurt. My skin on my hands betrayed that saying when they immediately started turning red. I only got slapped like, four times. I was really good at the game. I slapped really hard :D and the other kids said it really hurt, hah. :] And then it was the wind symphony's turn to go on and perform. We all gathered in t hat little corner again and started up the steps toward the stage. We waited for a strings group to finish and made fun of this lady who told us to smile in this weird way and who was wearing way to much perfume. I don't think I've laughed so hard in a while. After a two movement song, it was our turn. We took a seat, me next to Kelly since I use her music. And then we tuned to the oboe, Laura, Then Mr. Warshafsky came on and we played the first movement of Third Suite. Love it. Then he spoke to the audience. The group that performed before us came in on the balcony and were really noisy so we waited for them to sit. Then we played Elsa's Procession, which I also love .. it's so pretty. If I ever get married I want it to be played as I'm walking down the aisle. To finish we played Galop, which is probably my second favorite symphonic piece ever. Behind Symphonic Dance No. 3, of course. When we finished, Mr. Warshafsky bowed and walked off stage. We stood and the audience clapped like crazy. Mr. Warshafsky came back and that's when we took our leave. I left quickly cause I wanted to say goodbye to Emily if she was leaving. I stood next to her by the rack with our stuff as we put our instruments away. I finished before her, so I went and sat in a chair that was next to her as she cleaned out her clarinet. We talked a bit. When she was done she sat on the floor, so I put aside the chair and sat on the floor facing her. We talked and texted. She looked to see who I was texting, which of course was Desiree. Then she pulled out her phone and started texting Ellen. I knew it was her girlfriend, but I asked who it was anyway, just to be nice, I guess. She didn't say too much about her, except that she's a senior and that she's going to miss her a lot when she's gone. Emily told me she doesn't think she'll (meaning herself) be able to deal well with a long distance relationship. I told Emily about what happened with my parents, conveniently editting the part where I needed emotional support because I found out she has a girlfriend with, "because a girl I liked turned me down." HA. Then she asked me if I wanted to go somewhere. I asked where and she said, "Starbucks or something." I said sure, so I grabbed my purse and we headed outside. I told her I knew my way around because of flute camp, and decided to take her to Halo Pub instead. I proceeded to tell her the story of last year's trip to town during flute camp, with the guys that kept yelling, "tits" at me. When I got to the "jackass" part, I said "when they came around on their bikes again they screamed 'TITS!' and we screamed 'JACKASS!'" And I actually really yelled the words. Then started laughing and said, "That was kinda loud," and Emily started laughing histerically. I love how she actually laughs at me and my stupid funnies. No one else does. Then I asked where Ellen's going to college, ends up she's going to some school in Philly. I asked Em if she thinks they'll be okay. I got a "I hope so" as my answer. Then she asked me if I was sure I knew where I was going. I said "nope!" and we both laughed. Then my left ankle practically gave out and she caught my arm. She asked if I was okay, and DUH, I was okay, because she wouldn't let go. She linked her arm through mine as we kept walking. It was so nice. Then I was bold and went down and grabbed her hand and started swinging it so she wouldn't think it was awkward. Then we stopped swinging and just held hands. She told me that tomorrow is her and Ellen's five month. -facepalm- -shrug- Whatever. Then we rounded the corner back to the street where the campus is and she let go to wipe her hand off cause it got clammy. Then we held hands again down the rest of the street, until we had to cross. Then we ran across the street and back onto the campus. I grabbed her hand again and said, "I haven't held anyone's hand since last May. This is nice." Then she smiled at me and we walked back to the concert hall. She let go before we went back inside. We walked back down into the basement where we were before we left, and it was completely empty. We sat down on the little couch next to each other. She took her shoes off and I pulled up a chair so we could put our feet up. I was really sweaty so I pulled out my perfume and sprayed myself once. She said, "I probably smell bad too," when actually she always smells really pleasing. Not like flowery or fruity or sparkly or anything, just like herself. She smells nice. She asked to see my perfume and put some on her wrist and smelled it. She liked it. I got bored so I pulled out all my cubes. She messed them all up and I started solving them. When I finished my 2x2 and 3x3's, she would take them and mix them up again. When I finally realized she was doing that, I said, "Hey!" and she started laughing really hard ^_^. We talked more and I repeatedly said I didn't want to leave. The last group's music started playing over the speaker, so I knew I still had time left with her. At one point she started giggling at a text she got. I asked her what it said. She said, "asodfiasdnoaufdos I love you." I didn't quite catch the first couple words. Then she started to answer and I peeked over and it said "I love you too." I wanted to gag and cry at the same time ... but I didn't. I told her we just HAVE to hang out this summer. She said, "we'll find a weekend." Then the concert was over and we went upstairs together. I followed her and met her family. Then they were about to leave so she did that awkward smile-and-wave thing. I rolled my eyes and said, "come here" and pulled her toward me. We hugged and I patted her back a little too hard I think .. I was just trying to seem casual. As I let go I looked her in the eyes and said, "call me, okay?" and she 'smiled-and-thumbs-upped' this time. -sigh, facepalm-
Like I said, it was the best night I've had in a while. A long while. I don't remember the last time I held hands with someone I legitimately liked. Her hand felt wonderful.
Hell, everything about her is wonderful.
Screw that she has a girlfriend. I really don't care. I can still be her friend, and I can still like her. I'm not hurting anyone or anything :]
"Isn't she lovely ... isn't she wonderful ..." ^_^
<3Always, Molly Anna.
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